Your life may not stand as a linear path. It has always been difficult for me to set a goal and run towards it. It defies nature in a way, the chaos and mystery of the human experience. I would much rather float towards good feelings and murder fear in its tracks.
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I am enmeshed in a very particular moment, a web of context that includes beauty and fame and a social network and also being accepted by a certain echelon of society that has very sharp teeth and doesn’t blink very often. I was never looking for this or even considering it but it welcomed me in its arms and gave me a ton of miniature pancakes on a silver plate and I guess I haven’t been hugged in awhile. I guess despite my supposed spiritual prowess a part of me longed to be surrounded by pretty people and pictures. A part of me knew there were more doors waiting. A part of me was too young to turn away from the world. You have to be honest yourself. The trouble happens when a person disagrees with what their heart wants. So now I’m at these parties. These events organized by brands and magazines. I am invited to them at an alarming rate because there are a lot of eyes on me because I have a beautiful mind and because I know what to wear, kind of.
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